http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tPW70sgrHiY
Avril Lavigne Lyrics

always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart,
I'm missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok

I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do,
reminds me of you,
and the clothes you left, that lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok

(I miss you )

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah yeah
And all I ever wanted was for you to know
everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me Yeah...

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And When you're gone
The words I need to hear, will always get me through the day
And make it ok

I miss you...


<333 Good Song

Fonfon

Summer is here! I am loving the summer days of Washington, it is soooo relaxing. So much is happening or will happen. Mission is just a little more than 2 weeks away! I am really exciting, though there are still tons to prepare. I am sure and have faith that God already has a plan for me =] Just over the weekend on saturday, our team had a half-day prayer retreat @ Seward Park. It was really good. As first before heading into the retreat, I thought to myself- gosh this is going to be longggg. I am not going to be able to pray this long...but interestingly during the actual retreat it turned out totally different. My devotions was refreshing, I felt peace in my heart and much more prepared for this retreat than before. I am really glad that I got to spend that time with God.  I read through Psalm 139 and one verse in particular jumped out at me. "If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast." I thought to myself no matter what happens God will be right there, I need to continue to have faith and just trust that everything will be okay. Keep this verse with me this whole mission and remember that God is there, just believe. This remembers me of Kung Fu Panda when Po read the dragon's scoll and found nothing. He finally understands that there is no secret ingredients, the secret is just to believe. I think a lot of time we just need to learn how to let go and not take the matters into our own hands. =]

Anyways, I have been listening to this song hehe I love it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i0TUMSYTG4g

Enjoy!

-Fonnie

Springbreak came and passed. It makes me so sad cause it's my last break in High School. I guess I have college to look forward to haha. These few months of school will be hectic. IBs are coming up, yay, grades to maintain but Senioritis (I think) is kicking in. I am soooo tired and always wish school is over. I can't wait till I graduate. Where am I going to find my motivation again? Sigh. I used have a internal motivation now I just wanna let go of everything. I wanna be away from here for a little while, to find new experiences. I want to try something new, I want to travel somewhere far. I want to refresh myself. It was weird cause usually breaks tend to refresh my mind but this break there are just something I can't find an answer to, it was weird. I want to feel carefree again. I wonder what was that feeling like. I guess that's why I always want to be a kid again. Their lives are always so happy and free of burden. At least, I have WASL this week, so not too bad. I get to sleep in :) That's always really nice. Breakfast in the morning with friends, less hw for each night cause it is under block schedule. Thank you WASL haha.

( Lost my train of thought, update more later...)

(April 17,2008)

haha continue on my previous thoughts...

WASL week! What can I say? It is awesome, I have less homework than usual. I got to stay up talking to people :) that is always fun, cause I don't get to do that often. Umm, haha this week is very first time that I procrastinated on my schoolwork! Yay or nay? Depends how you see it. hahaha, usually people tells me to slow down or relax. It is hard when I have so much stuff on my mind... it gets cloudy up there. I can't believe it- tomorrow is friday already. This week (kinda) went by fast yet it was slow... what irony. I guess it is a nice transition from break back to school. I still remember on monday which was a regular day... I got up late. My mom had to drive me to school. Thank goodness my parents had a day off that day or else I would have been in SO much trouble. I felt horrible though cause it WAS my parent's day off and I dragged my mom out of bed @ 6:50am. hhahaha :( I am a terrible daughter but at the same time my mom DID forgot to tell me how she turned off my alarm when I spent the night over at Karis's during break. I guess I don't feel AS bad. haha

Going backward now- over break- I went to visit uw on friday with a couple friends. It was really nice, I got to catch up with some people and got advices for college. I can't wait till next year where I get to explore the campus, meet different types of people and get started on my dream. Such an exciting time of my life. There are so much to see, so much to learn. I can't wait :)

(Homework time haha- more later- new blog i think so.)